The Week in Review

I should have listened to my body this week as my effort to keep my body moving has culminated in a worthless Saturday. When my body said, "hey running probably isn't the best idea," I said, "hey body, maybe I can sweat out whatever is going on in there." That ended up with me laying in bed the majority of the day Wednesday and Thursday with chills and a pretty bad sore throat. Had I listened, I would have been able to make healthy decisions this week. And I don't mean like eating healthy, but psychological ones. I saw Agent Z for about an hour last night before heading out to see Shipwreck for his birthday. I had a total of three beverages last night and ended up making some pretty poor choices. The worst of all being a text around midnight thirty. My head has been in the right place for over a week and a half and during a moment of brief sadness, I went ahead and didn't think things through. I wasn't drunk, so I'm not exactly sure why I did it.

I'm going to blame my poor choices this week on my illness and the fact that I think I need to change meds. I can't decide what to attribute my dizziness to. It's such a strange feeling. The top of my head feels very very warm, and I almost feel like there is a constant buzzing going on. My eyes feel droopy and I can't seem to raise my head all the way. I almost feel like I'm walking around with my head bent towards the ground. Raising it has taken quite the effort. I'm thinking it's the meds because my depression seems to be manifesting itself rather differently as of late. I don't know what's going on. I feel strange.

Maybe it's just a combination of being ill, mentally and physically. I'm going back to sleep as I've been SO productive today. Church tomorrow will bring about a new beginning to hopefully a more valuable week. Namaste!