Monday, January 18, 2010

This is me... Sorry

I was encouraged this evening to delete the last two blogs that I posted because they were too "deep," too "analytical." Well this is me. I feel deeply, I analyze my world to make better sense of it. I am careful as to who I let see what I write.

I have been told by those that read it that I am insightful or that I have an interesting perspective on the world. My blog attracts those who also want to make sense of the chaotic world that we live in.

So this is me. I don't write my blog to make others happy. This is mine, they are my thoughts. I believe that life is ever changing and my blog allows me to see where I've been and perhaps where I'm going. I don't write it to try to attract people to me. I write this blog for myself and sometimes I have to cry out into the world what is going on. I let the energy of my soul reach the Universe and then I take faith that things will be as they are supposed to be. If I write about you, it is because I learn from you, because you have touched my life. If it ever sounds like I am reaching the "depths" of life, just know that I haven't. I take life seriously. I love it beyond compare. So I get sad on occasion, who doesn't? Understanding my deepest suffering is a way for me to also recognize my deepest joy.

This is me, I don't intend to scare people away from me. If I do, then so be it. The people that cannot handle the deepness of my emotions or the way I embrace life don't need to be apart of it. They can click right on over to the next blog.

This is me, I don't pretend to be somebody that I am not. I take myself for who I am and I present myself to the world as the person that I feel most comfortable being. Sorry if I am not what the world expects me to be, but this is me.

2 comments:

  1. Don't apologize for this. As you say, understanding your suffering is also understanding your joy.

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  2. When I apologize I meant it very sarcastically. I enjoy understanding myself.

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