Thursday, May 27, 2010

Sometimes

I just want to scream to the world... What the Fuck did I do? Why do I so often get handed shit? I'm a good person. I deserve goodness.

I wrote that above line when I was feeling pissy about my life, then I got an e-mail to end all e-mails. Something that has left me nervous and shaky. It is shit that has been handed to me, and this time all my depression and lack of self-esteem has accumulated in one ball of shit, shit, shit. It's like I manifest badness into my life. Why? I try to remain positive even when I tell myself I am crap. I want goodness out of this life. I can only imagine how much shittier life would be if I focused on the negative all the time.

Testing tomorrow and I hope everything turns out okay. Love my life... but at this point I'm so fed up with everything.
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1 comment:

  1. AnonymousMay 27, 2010 at 5:40 PM

    ahhh que paso? hate days like this but the good thing is that it all will pass in time. hang in there.
    alicia
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