Fearfully & Wonderfully Made

How many times do we look in the mirror every morning and disdain what we see in the reflection? For me, I'd say about 60% of the time. When I was going through a depressive moment in my life, I would look at myself and tell myself how ugly I was, or how fat I was. After a while, I believed what I was telling myself, so I decided to try a different approach; tell myself how pretty I am, and how awesome I look!  It didn't quite work because the negativity I had fed myself had severely affected me to the point where I had absolutely no self-esteem.


Today I read the most beautiful poem:
Psalm 139: 13-16
¹³ For it was you who formed my inward parts;
   you knit me together in my mother’s womb. 
¹⁴ I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
   Wonderful are your works;
that I know very well. 
¹⁵   My frame was not hidden from you,
when I was being made in secret,
   intricately woven in the depths of the earth. 
¹⁶ Your eyes beheld my unformed substance.
In your book were written
   all the days that were formed for me,
   when none of them as yet existed. 


I may not see what God sees in me everyday when I look in the mirror, or more importantly when I curse the horrific-ness of an under-wire bra, but I am worthy of being kind to myself and accepting what He sees as beautiful. It doesn't matter if my hair is oily today because the shower is in the process of being fixed right now. God sees me, He sees what's most important. Plus he knows that tomorrow I can wash my hair again! These days I value myself and much of the time I do that because I have put confidence in the fact that it doesn't matter whether others think I'm "hot or not." I am beautiful to God otherwise He wouldn't have put me on this earth, He never would have made possible my conception.