Joe's Birthday

Today was a fantastic day. My boss asked me to take studio style portraits for our service awards. It wasn't that exciting, but I think my boss has realized how seriously I am taking photography.  So, that was great.

Today, my cousins, aunt Terri, and Grandparents celebrated the lives of my Aunt Julie and Uncle Steve who both died of cancer 3 1/2 and two years ago respectively.  This may sound kind of corny, but since their passing, and the popularity of Facebook, we have been a much closer family.  We all live in different areas of the country, but it is so nice to be able to be friends like this.  In a world of chaos and "impending doom," we are fortunate to be able to be close from such long distances.

Also today is a big day for my blog. Today Joe Alabarces, the young man who inspired this blog, would have been 24 today.  So, today I am throwing a party... replete with balloons and a cake!

Enjoy Joe, we know you're partying it up good with the Big J.C.  Love you always!

Karma's a Bitch

Deleted... cuz it wasn't true. 

My name is Angela Christine Colina.  I was named after my aunt/godmother Julie Christine, she was a beautiful woman.

I am 32 years old and I have been nothing but a failure at this life. I cannot even successfully find a way out of it.... and I want out. I need out.

Every other day of my life is spent in an abyss of depression, nothing I can do can seem to shake me out of it. I don't think I'll ever be good enough for life or for anybody.  I've accomplished goals in my life, but without recognition even from my family.  I've accomplished so much, but feeling good about them alone can only go so far.

...... Maybe I'll just lay here in my bed til my weary heart gives out.

Giving & Receiving

I just got off the phone with Mr. Forester with the intention of writing, but I'm not feeling it due to a little bit of head and stomachache.  I'm tired of seeing Jekyll & Hyde as the first title on my blog. I wrote that when I was acknowledging the dark side of my self that I want to conquer. So for today, I'm sharing my happiness with whoever needs it ... I hope the energy caused by it reaches you well. It is my gift to you today and I hope it brightens your day or makes it even better than it already is.  I will hopefully be prepared to share with you tomorrow more cohesive thoughts on giving and receiving.

We are all connected in this world and despite my ails, I am happy and want to share it with you all.

Goodnight world!

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